BIG and little (hopefully!!!!)

So, I have never been one to diet and I like to have goals and resolutions all throughout the year, but this year is going to be different . . . I am starting a very BIG goal and I am doing it for the new year . . . I want to lose 20 lbs. by my birthday in April. I have decided that I don't like being as BIG as I am and I would like to be little like I used to be. I am bigger than I have ever been in my entire life and I am not okay with it anymore. I have decided that in order to keep my goal, I need to be open about where I am at. I am going to track my progress on this blog and because I know someone might read my entries, I will be more liable for my progress.

I have been very fortunate to have a good enough self-esteem to not be depressed about my weight and how I look . . . in fact, I actually think 'I look goooooood" ;) . . . but after seeing myself in way too many family photos this year and realizing that I am officially the largest female on both sides of my family, I realize I am not okay with it anymore. I don't like being a little chubby, I don't like that my clothes don't fit right, and I don't like the size of my face (it just isn't me)! I was always so thin growing up and because I was an athlete, I never had to worry about what I ate (and believe me, that was a LOT!!!). I have always LOVED food and I have always eaten a LOT of it - I don't feel like there is an underlying reason why I eat so much (as Jillian on Biggest Loser would insist), but I sure do it, nonetheless. I think everyone probably has some type of addiction in their life and mine just happens to be food. Oh, drat.

So here's what I am going to do. I am going to tell you what I weigh right now and each week until my birthday I am going to do the same. I have committed myself to only eating one serving of each meal throughout the day, snacking on fruits and vegetables (or possibly yogurt or pretzels) and I am not going to be eating sweets (although, I found these awesome all natural fruit popsicles that are only 30 calories if I really need something sweet). I will exercise for at least an hour, 3 to 4 times a week, (which I love to do) and will probably exercise everyday except Sunday if I do not have other pressing commitments.

I really feel like this will help me lose the weight that I desire and hopefully by my knowing that someone else out there will be able to read my progress, I will be able to lose the weight faster than four months or lose more than 20 lbs. by my birthday.

I really do enjoy being in good health. I love to exercise, and I enjoy eating healthy . . . now I just need to do it!!! Wish me luck!!

By the way, I currently weigh 184 lbs., as of this morning, on my scale at home. I probably weigh a little more than that if I were to weigh myself at the gym, but I am going to go off of my home scale because that is where I will be regularly weighing myself. Besides, my goal is 20 lbs., so it really doesn't matter what scale I use as long as I use the same one. I know I can do it!

P.S. I have a lot of holiday posts I am going to put up soon, but I had to do this post first since it is my top priority right now. :)